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    Well, this week has been more than hectic. It started 4 days ago when I called my mom and said "Mom, you don't sound like you feel very well." She said she felt like crap, and that she probably needed to go to the ER. Well, that put me into high gear, and Ed and I whisked away to the hospital where Priscy was going to take her to meet us. We got her checked in, and they did bunches of tests and an ex-ray of her chest and many other things. They kept her over night, and I called her that morning, and asked what the doctor said. She had thought she was going into Acidosis (sp?) which would have been very bad. Turns out, that the thyroid medication dosage the doctor has had her on for like... ever, has been was too high, and her THS was off the charts. Her THC was fine though. Well, I kept visiting her throughout her stay, and she steadily felt better once they took away her medication so her levels could go down. Sh went home yesterday morning, and is feeling much better now. They said it will take her 6 - 8 weeks to be completely right, but that's what's been making her sleepy and sick and dead all of the time. It's also what put her in the ER last year, though for some reason they didn't figure that out when she was there. Stupid Quacks. They figure, if a diabetic is in the ER, that must be what the problem is..... forget testing anything else. Regardless, she will start feeling much better soon. I'm thankful for that.

So mom came home and everything was honky dory, then I went to the bathroom and BLOOD. Lots of gushing blood. (Okay, maybe I exaggerate a bit, but it was several teaspoons worth, and I'm pregnant, so I kind of freaked. ) I grabbed Ed and told him that I had some bleeding, and his nurse Dad and Mom said "You ER, now." So, now I was off to the ER. I got all checked in, and this stupid nurse- doctor thing (I really have no clue what she was. She said Doctor, but it seems an ER doctor couldn't have been as closed minded as she was.) came in and said "oh, you're having some vaginal bleeding? Well, that just means that you're miscarrying the baby, and we'll just have to watch for when you pass the tissue." Okay, I understand that when there is a miscarriage, there is absolutely nothing the doctors can do to save it. But, I also know what a miscarriage entails, and I kept telling her that the bleeding was sudden, had subsided, was accompanied with NO Pain (or cramping, or discomfort) and had happened right after intercourse with my husband. I also told her that I hoped she was going to order an ultrasound and a pelvic exam before she condemned my baby to death. Bleeding in a pregnancy does not always mean a miscarriage. Well She said "I'll have to talk to the doctor and see if he orders a pelvic exam and an ultrasound." Ed said something along the lines of "You see to that" (and you know Ed's scary face. XDD) Needless to say, I didn't see that woman the rest of the night. This very nice male doctor came in and said that he's be carting me away to do a pelvic exam in a few minutes, but first they would have to get me to pee in a cup to confirm that I was pregnant. x.x? I was like, "I could show you the picture I have of the baby" Hehe.  I guess it's just a standard thing. The test was positive, and he did the pelvic. Said everything looked normal, and said the ultrasound here would be the key.
Then came the fun part. I had to drink two HUGE cups of water and then the nurse took two hours before she came back to do the ultrasound, I didn't think I could hod my pee that long. I was going to pop.
She finally came in, and by this time, my mom and aunt had shown up and Mom got to stay in the room for the ultrasound, and so did Ed. we saw the little baby moving around a little, and saw it's heart beating and then we heard it beating. Mom cried and Ed had tears (He says he didn't cry. My ass...) Well, the baby was very much alive and fine. The (nice) doctor said that sometimes there can be a little blood and it's perfectly normal. He said the baby had a strong heart beat and was perfectly healthy, and that I should take it easy, but not to worry. Happy baby!

So, wouldn't you like to see the baby? It's much bigger now than it was 3 weeks ago!



That's it's head on the bottom, and we're looking at it's back it's butt is toward the top, and there's it's little arm flippers. that red and blue is it's heart beating, they just coloured it in for us to see. Beautiful isn't it?

So, happy and healthy, Mom and me and baby!

Well, it's finally happened. We've been thinking about it for a while, and now with the baby on the way, living so far from both of our families just isn't going to work. We need the support from them during my pregnancy and with a newborn. Help with child care, and closeness if there is any kind of emergency. Plus the cost of living is just so insane right now. I know the  country's leaders don't want to admit it, but we are in a recession.  1920's anyone?  Do you know that comparatively, gas prices to value of the dollar, Gas is more expensive per gallon now than it was in the 20's recession? Go figure... x.x
Also, the maternity care here in Oxford is God- Awful.  I have to drive at least a half an hour just to get to the Health Department's  "Doctors"  Forget real health care and doctors.

So, we are moving back to his mom's house. No bills at all. Ed can go and finish the police academy and actually have a career when baby is born, then he won't have to be trying to support a family on McDonald's wages. >.>
They are remodeling the downstairs for us, putting in a nice little kitchenette and all kinds of things, plus lots of space for baby. not something I had in our little one room house in Oxford. I was really wondering how I was going to raise a baby in that house.

Sadly, to move I had to take my two special kittens Crush and Fanta to the animal Center here in Pinellas. They are no- kill and assured me that the kittens were healthy and would go straight to a pet store to be adopted happily. I know that since they are both still kitten cute, they'll go quickly. I cried a lot, but realistically, they were too many kitters to handle. We really couldn't afford them, especially with my own little bundle on the way. They'll go to someone that will love them and give them the attention I could not with this move. Mirri also had to go, we took her to go live with my mommy and Marvin. Everybody living there was really excited. Mirri is a very sweet kitty, and will get along well. The three boys came here to Ed's mom's place to live with us. They're ecstatic about their new home, and have so far climbed and explored -everything-
They're not too crazy about Ed's Boxer that lives here, she's big, loud and clumsy, she comes running down the stairs saying "play? play? play?" Bambino likes her pretty well, and plays with her. They all taunt her though, then run away when she comes to play XDD
They're also not too crazy about the 3 year old that chases them around yelling "Kitty Cat!!"  they were getting fat and lazy though, they need to be chased a little X3

Mortis (the snake) also got a new home. We found a girl that works at petco, very sweet, that took him to live with her. Ed was really sad, but again, it's better this way when the baby comes.

Azul (the beta) did well on the move. He scared the crap out of me though a few hours after we got here, we turned on the filter to get all of the floaty crap that stirred up in his tank moving (no I did not move my fish in his tank XD I did move the tank with about 30% of the water still in it though. I didn't want to kill the entire bio community in the gravel, it's really important for keeping the nitrates and ammonia down.) okay, we turned on the filter, and a little while later I saw him just laying on the plant in the tank. Obviously alive, but not looking good. Now, I know he's like the laziest fish in the world, and often sleeps on the bottom of the tank, but this time he was like lying dead- like X.x
So I turned off the filter thinking the stress of the move was just too much for him, and poof! he was swimming around again happy as can be. God he is lazy. He didn't want to swim against the current, so he just decided to hang onto the plant and chill..... Silly fish. He has to have the filter sometimes... Bad.

Yup so that's what's going on right now. Mom's really really excited we're back here. I missed her a lot too. I can keep prodding her and get her to go get her procrit now. Her damn hemoglobin is now below 9. That's bad.... I have to make her go, she's so weak and sick. x.x

I can't even begin to describe how I feel right now, I had an ultrasound appointment today, for both abdominal and vaginal points of view.
I have to say, I went into that appointment terrified that they would tell me that there was a baby there, but it just has no heartbeat. Every terrible scenario was going through my head.

Well, we got to the ultrasound, and thank God, the doctor was very very sweet, she took her little wand and stuck it on my belly, and There! There on the screen I saw it!

She told me that the baby was only about 7 weeks old (a far cry from the original 4 months I was told....) But that's okay, I'm just ecstatic that I got to see it. It's beautiful. There's nothing in the world that compares to the feeling I have in me. She played the little recorder when she did the vaginal, and I got to hear the little heartbeat. "thump thump thump thump" real fast and steady. I will never in my life forget that sound. I started crying with relief when I heard it. I'm still all weepy. I'm just so happy. I realized looking at the picture on the screen of my little one, that there's nothing in the world that matters to me more than my baby. It's incredible. I can't describe.

My little baby:




See that dark circle? That's the gestational sac.
The little light grey part in the middle of it is my baby!

by the way, our due date is February 25 2009!

I'm so excited!

Sunday night (Okay, really Monday morning, it was like... 4 am) Syndal and Marie came over! Yay! We had so much fun, it was just like old times, too bad T couldn't come too, but you know she's off in la la land.... x.x
Anywho, We had the -best- time! I haven't seen Marie in... ages, and it's been too long since I saw Syndal too. Way too long. I was getting to the point of loneliness where I was going to just kidnap them, but their jobs might not like that O.o So it's a good thing they came over. hehe

We had one of our awesome girls- days- out. Went to this restaurant called "Uki" which is a Japanese stake house. I had some awesome Hibachi steak and chicken, and Syndal had tempura shrimp, and Marie had sushi. yum! After we left there, we walked around the main street for a while, and then went to a chocolate shop and got some expensive, but delicious chocolate. Finally we went to Barns and Noble, and sat in the coffee shop. By this time, Ed had joined us.

I hope the girls come by again soon, I've been missing them like crazy. I really want to hang out with them like we used to. I miss having friends, and spending time with them. I wish I could get into the doll thing with them, but I just can't justify buying one, especially with a baby on the way. All of our extra money goes to saving for a new vehicle. I can't put a baby seat in a '71 Chevy truck XD

Okay, so what else have I been up to? Went to my mom's house for the 4th of July. I took her to see the fireworks, and met her new boyfriend. He was very nice. I think this is the first time I've met one of her male friends and didn't hate him right off of the bat. He was very polite, and treated her very nicely. Plus he didn't stink of beer like the last dick shit she was dating.
This guy is actually decent from what I can tell. He's a mechanic and has a boat. He took her to a party this week, and she had lots of fun, and then he took her out to catch fishies on his boat. Hopefully he stays nice, and I can like him ^-^

Anyways, about visiting my mommy. We had a great time. The fireworks were beautiful, and Mom seemed to enjoy them. We left there, and headed over to Brooksville to visit with Syndal and Marie. We stayed there over night, and had some fun. Next day, we went to visit with Derek, Ben and Old School. Went to Hops with 'em, and caught up on things. It's been much too long since we've seen them either. Went to Ben's new place and watched some movies. had a blast. XD

When we went to leave for home, my truck's tire was flat. I swear... how much car trouble am I going to have? I've already used up my AAA card for the whole year with that damned Camaro. now it's sitting in my yard broken.
Ed had to miss work because there wasn't a mechanic open until 10:00 the next day. x.x It was nice to get to spend the day with him though, an sleep in.

Today I have a doctor's appointment. It's actually in an hour, and I need to get up and get going soon. I'll be getting some prenatal blood work done, and hopefully (cross your fingers!) They'll try to listen for the heart beat or do an ultrasound. I really really want them to make sure that the baby is okay. I keep being afraid that there will be no heart beat, and the baby will have not made it. As paranoid as that is, because I know there's no reason that something should have happened to it. I don't drink or smoke, I eat carefully and well, I take my vitamins, all of that stuff. Plus, there has been no blood or pain or anything.  I can't help but be worried though, I guess it's the mother in me.

OMG! This pregnancy thing sucks I must say. Well, being pregnant is great, I'm totally excited, and It's incredible that there's a whole 'nother person growing inside of me, but I swear, I am so sick.... all of them time. I thought the second trimester is when nausea and morning sickness goes away? I was fine the first three months. Enter month four, I can't eat, I can't lay down, I just pee and throw up. Or I dry heave for 10 minutes. It sucks. I actually threw up in a parking lot yesterday and some guy came by and thought I was drunk. I told him no, it's just the baby reminding me that it's there. -As if I would forget x.x

Well, it's 1:20 and I have to get ready for the appointment. Pray it goes well! I'm honestly still half convinced I'm going to go in and they're going to be like "Why are you here? You're not pregnant." As silly as that sounds, it still has a hint of surreal feeling. Like It's not actually happening. I really don't think that will change till I actually see the baby. o.o